Y .Friday, April 27, 2007.
haiishh .. talkiing t0 hiim ishh actually quite a difficult task ..
m0st 0ff the times .. whenn he talks t0 mi on ph0ne ,
he w0uldd say 0ut all his feelings .. making mi sh0 NAN WEI QING ..
he injuredd himself f0r mi ? d0es it w0rthh it ?
uu shldd nt injure urself but just be happi ..
nn enj0yy everdae uu have ..
injuring yrself making mi feel the pain t00 ? hmmm ...
yy d0es uu have t0 d0 this t0 make mi feel the pain t00 ?
just withh0ut tht 5% it c0uldn't make up 100% ..
5% mayy nt be wadd uu wann .. but it may mi enuff f0r s0me 0thers .
maybe uu d0senn't understandd wadd ii meaning lahhs .. but nbms ..
uu t0t tht ii d0senn't care ? hmm .. maybe u thinkk tht wae ?
asking mi f0r steadd .. i shldd be happi tht ppl ask mi f0r steadd ..
but asking mi at the wr0ngg time ?
nn in the w0rldd .. thr isnnt uu 0nli wh0 askedd mi ..
iit isnnt uu wh0 waitedd mi f0r sh0 l0ngg 0nlii ..
nn uu shldd n0e theyy b0thh waitedd even l0ngerr ?
shldd n0e wh0 ii saying bahhs ? hahs ..
ii d0sent meann tht ii w0nt accept uu in FUTURE ..
but .. f0r wadd ii n0e n0w ..
ii have a steadd tht ish faithhful t0 mi t00 ..
nn ii shall be faiithful t0 himm t00 ..
maybe uu d0sennt really n0e h0w ii feel ..
uu telling mi th0se things tht uu are sadd abt ..
but did uu ever n0e tht ii amm feeling guilty ..
0f wadd uu are sadd abt ?
d0 uu n0e it ish verii hardd f0r mi t0 face uu ?
uu alwaes injure yrselff ..
did uu spare a t0t f0r mi ?
d0 uu wann mi t0 endd up being crazii ?
all this things are driving mi crazii ..
uu alwaes make mi w0rry b0ut uu ..
uu alwaes miss schh as nn whenn uu lik ?
uu alwaes miss yr tuition classes ?
ii cannt m0ther feed uu by asking uu t0 attendd ..
ii cannt even f0rce uu t0 g0 f0r schh 0r tuition ..
c0s ii amm nt yr anythings ?
yy w0uldd ii be sh0 w0rry b0ut uu ish c0s ii care ?
ii n0e yr feelings but ii cannt d0 anythings t0 it ..
d0 uu thinkk ii wan t0 be lik tht ?
but wadd cann ii d0 ?!
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<3s JOANNA
YYY
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